pregnancy. update.

today I had my OB appointment, it was the first time he checked me. I'm not dilated but what is worth noting is that I'm measuring full-term and I still have another 4 weeks to go till my due date!! Dr Yami is great and you had to be there in the room, when he saw my stomach and measured me and said casually....

"so erin, do you feel bigger this second time around?"

Um. I responded with a resounding:

"YES!"

He said "OK, yep you are, bigger then last time. In fact, you are measuring 40 weeks NOT 36 weeks."

I'm sure my jaw dropped when he told me that.

I think I had to repeat that in my head a couple of times..measuring at 40 weeks and I'm 36 weeks.

Great. So what does this mean I ask?

Basically it means that I might have a large baby and that waiting till my due date may not be an option.

We will take it week by week at this point, he says and just see what happens.

I'm not shocked and I'm not upset by this news, I knew I was large, it was rather funny when we were discussing it because I think Mike and I both knew I was big but we had no idea I was measuring a month bigger then I really am. We all got some good laughs in that room today.

I just want this baby to come naturally. I do not want to be induced in any way shape or form and I do not want a C-section so it's a fine line. Why? Because if I wait to long because I refuse to be induced and the baby keeps getting bigger then I run the risk of a C-section. If I give in and get induced then the chances of having the type of birth I want are lessened.

All I want is for the baby to come when it's ready and not because of medical intervention.

I do not want to be medically induced what so ever...

So hopefully that will not be the case but it does seem likely that this little baby will show his or her head sooner then later...

Stay Tuned.....

pondering.

Since I first found out I was pregnant with this second child I have been wondering and thinking about what type of labor and delivery experience I want with this child. With Jack we did what is known as Hypnobirthing. It was the most difficult, most intense, joyous, liberating, awe - inspiring experience of my life.

Quite simply it was a spiritual experience.

Was it painful? Hell yes.

It was beyond what I knew of pain. It was another dimension that I didn't know existed.

Did I want to give up? Yes, more times then I can count.

But there was something else I was feeling and that was a feeling of pure and utter happiness, and excitement of what was to come. This beautiful baby. I was finally going to meet.

Even through the pain, I felt protected by those around me, I felt loved and supported by Mike, my mom, my doctor and the nurses. During those moments of pain when I wanted to give up I also felt something magical and unbelievable happening to my body and I realized that what I needed to do during the pain was to surrender. Truly surrender to it. Surrender to the natural cycle of giving birth and it was just that.

Natural and completely beautiful.

So it seems like it would be an easy choice, right? Do Hypnobirthing again since I had such a great experience.

Well those that know me - know that I am often unpredictable, fly by the seat of my pants and I always like to try new and different things - and switching it up and doing something different with this baby sounds appealing and enticing.

The question is: Will I regret my decision not to do hypnobirthing?

That is what I am thinking about....what do you guys think? Come on - give me some opinions.

I need help deciding what to do!!

this is becoming a problem.

Wow...I know they say women space it when they are pregnant and it seems I am no exception to this rule. Let's back track a few hours today....I'm leaving the house to go do some work at Starbucks and notice that a banana sounds delicious, so I grab it, kiss Jack goodbye and go to my car. Sitting in Starbucks I look in my purse for my banana and can't find it. "hmmm, that is funny. I know I just had that darn thing, where did it go?" Perhaps, I just left it in the kitchen as I was walking out. Two hours later....I walk back out to my car and get in and drive home. Just as I pull in the driveway and get out low and behold there is my damn banana!! Sitting on the hood of my car!! What???? Yes, my banana sat on the hood of my car the entire way to Starbucks and back!! I seriously have to wonder if strangers who saw my car wondered why there was a banana sitting on the hood of it??? "Who is that crazy girl with a banana on the hood of her car?" And because I don't go anywhere without my camera, I took a photo of it just for you to see.

P.S. I wish this were the only case of me leaving food on my car....but I wholeheartedly admit that just a month ago, I found a piece of jelly toast that had been riding around on the hood of my car...oh...for about 3-4 hours while I was out running errands one morning. Apparently I forgot I was trying to eat some breakfast as I ran out the door...do you think this is a recurring problem??

baby.

Officially I am 6 months pregnant today...and I noticed that I officially can no longer see my feet when I am standing up. Hmmmm....it's a good thing I love being pregnant otherwise that might also affect my mood.