pondering.

Since I first found out I was pregnant with this second child I have been wondering and thinking about what type of labor and delivery experience I want with this child. With Jack we did what is known as Hypnobirthing. It was the most difficult, most intense, joyous, liberating, awe - inspiring experience of my life.

Quite simply it was a spiritual experience.

Was it painful? Hell yes.

It was beyond what I knew of pain. It was another dimension that I didn't know existed.

Did I want to give up? Yes, more times then I can count.

But there was something else I was feeling and that was a feeling of pure and utter happiness, and excitement of what was to come. This beautiful baby. I was finally going to meet.

Even through the pain, I felt protected by those around me, I felt loved and supported by Mike, my mom, my doctor and the nurses. During those moments of pain when I wanted to give up I also felt something magical and unbelievable happening to my body and I realized that what I needed to do during the pain was to surrender. Truly surrender to it. Surrender to the natural cycle of giving birth and it was just that.

Natural and completely beautiful.

So it seems like it would be an easy choice, right? Do Hypnobirthing again since I had such a great experience.

Well those that know me - know that I am often unpredictable, fly by the seat of my pants and I always like to try new and different things - and switching it up and doing something different with this baby sounds appealing and enticing.

The question is: Will I regret my decision not to do hypnobirthing?

That is what I am thinking about....what do you guys think? Come on - give me some opinions.

I need help deciding what to do!!